The Inner Me an artistic view of myself -

     I've been doing some deep thinking to the point where I find cravings that really don't make complete and total sense with me. I'll admit there are some things that catch my eye, but it's like things are holding my attention that really do nothing for me. Little details in light, bizarre porn where there is nothing that really turns me on about it, but curiosity won't let it be. To a partial point I'm quite animalistic in my desirable tastes. Yet there is this curiosity to see darker and darker into a world I'll never be able to reach.
     I'm told I'm withdrawn and well slowly heading down that road that doesn't make sense to anyone where people are fearful that I'm going to lose it. Maybe this is what I've become or maybe this is just the path of where my mind is. I know something isn't right, but it's hard to put my finger on what just exactly is reflecting in my thoughts as of late.

I'll be honest with ya...

     I'm still in awe at how many people view the blog of someone they have no personal knowledge of, well to those of you whom keep ending up here might I recommend a blog that I have actually been working hard at. http://anmdreimann.blogspot.com This is a blog of my artwork. I'll admit it's not quite as thrilling as the dreams and thoughts of a weird guy like me but I'm sure it will be way way way more entertaining as I spend more of my time working on the blog than this on.
- William Dreimann

Seriously who keeps reading this????

     I'm finding it kind of funny that the blog I set up to express my random thoughts of nothing seems to get more of a read that anything I put my thoughts into. Maybe it's just a random action that keeps people ending up here. Seriously what is so intriguing about this specific blog? I write down some of the weird shit that goes through my head and it's like crack, I sit down research and back up my work and it's like it doesn't exist..... I don't get it.
     If you're enjoying this madness or the fact that I'm going a bit crazy over something so trivial please leave me a note, say hi or something.... I don't know.
- William Dreimann

Radio Silence

     Lately I've felt lost and alone in a sense. It's hard to understand what I'm looking for in life, or that people have been following and reading some of this crap online. I'm actually quite a boring person yet I feel that I have to share my inner demons and insanity with people. It's like I want to be remembered for something in my life. I'm not saying I'm planning on dying any time soon, but the thought is there that if I were to die tomorrow how would people remember me? I know those whom I've touched the heart of would remember me as I am, but I feel that I would then become a faded memory. I want to do something that people still question and want to know more about years from now. My artwork seems to be the best start to that. I don't know......
- William "Jebus" Dreimann

A pack of smokes and a broken mind :

      I've got to admit this is a first I feel something but I'm not sure how to explain it. It's like this yearning for something different something new. Could be a mixture of madness and expressed feelings I've been repressing for years. I'll admit frustration but maybe I'm seeing more now? I'd like to say this is a good thing but I actually wish to disassociate myself from my feelings as much as possible. Feelings make the mind act off and cloud the logical answers of the mind. God I hate how my mind works.

- William Dreimann

Feeling......

      I'll admit I'm not happy right now I'm just in a crappy mood. I've been sleeping funky and emotionally have the same equivalency to that of a suicidal psychotic madman. So there's that. I'm pondering what the future holds.

The watcher of dreams.

There's a sick and twisted pleasure coming from inside my fantasy
A point where I escape the madness and all of this reality
Keep your minds eye open and watch the shadows closely
Empty darkness is never truly and positively empty
Make haste for salvation from this world
Enigmatic dreams slowly come unfurled
Always see the shadows in the light
Where I stand there watching waiting for night
Always see the glowing eyes of fate
You'll know I'm there you know I always wait

- William Dreimann

I'm trying to find my sense of normal and well keep finding myself lost in Underland

     There's a point where sanity and insanity cross and devils and angels mix. This is where I keep finding myself. It's really confusing to keep finding myself at the crossroads and well I think I need to pull a dethklok with the contracts the devil has to offer lol. There's a lot on my mind and nothing visible on the horizon. It's almost as if I have fallen down the rabbit hole. Which is ironic due to my love of fantasy and I'm trying to push reality.

       So what does one do when they feel a connection? An attraction to things far beyond their reach or ability? I had a reality once that made sense now all seems like madness. Are you the rabbit?
-  William Dreimann

Music and art -

     I'm on some level an artist, more of an eccentric and a bizarre maniac with a taste for the odd and unusual, but I roll that all into my view of an artist. I'm not saying that I know art or that my art is better than others, but I do understand the concept of art, and contrary to popular belief art is not just an expression.... it is a voice. Thus bringing me to the concepts of censorship. Censorship is actually quite infantile in it's development compared to the world. As of the past 20 years it has been a tool to control and conform the masses and well simply speaking a nanny to the masses. No you can't say this or do that or show this at this time. The times however have matured and become smarter than the censor. If we don't like what you have to say we go to another form of media. Don't like that they censored a TV show download the uncensored episode online.
     This massive monster of a question is born from this change in the times. What is right for whom? I'm not saying there are direct rules to age as people like forms of art are multifaceted and differ greatly. There is a basic guideline and the ultimate downfall to this guideline which creates the majority of the issues with censorship is Parental guidance. Too many parents let things fly that shouldn't just because they'd rather be friends with their child rather than a parent. Mostly because people are having children younger and younger. So how do you enforce the failure of these few parents? The government and the conservative view is to punish us all. To be honest this is futile and pointless as the smart masses of the people learn ways around things. Such as pirating, bootlegging and intellectual bypassing of the limits of censorship oh and by the way a fair portion of the people smart enough to counteract the censorship are the idiots who don't watch their kids. Ironic right?
     Art is a given right. No I don't mean that an infant or an immature should be allowed to paint nudes or something more bizarre. What I'm stating that if a mind is allowed to be creative it gives a child focus. Instead of teaching todays use the internet and letting the TV and Web raise your child. Sit down and do something artistic with them. Let them sing or teach them some silly songs. If you're creative enough parodies. What is wrong with the "Youth of the Nation" is not the media they are shown or the games they play, but the lacking of supervision and moral support to go with the media they are exposed to. I was raised in the Looney Toons era but never did I once try to feed my brother dynamite. I was taught it's humor not how life works. This is part of the flaw or the mixture of animation and reality TV. More people think that what they see on TV should be copied by the fact they are told "This is real", instead of "this is for entertainment purposes".
- William Dreimann

5/1/13 - Damnation and internal zombification

     I'm having a bit of a internal mental breakdown, I keep getting feelings of dread and unsurely moods. There is a blank stare to my dreams as of late it's like I'm seeing something else something not so me. I could just be subconsciously taking on some of my friends worries but there's a dead darkness that I'm not quite used to. It's actually effecting my sleep. There must be an answer.

- WD