I am a fool of desire. I'll share my plight here, but I will state that this is a replication of my thoughts not an exact representation.
Lust ..... It's something we all desire. I for one fall victim to this whim quite often. I find myself thought unable to respond to it's calls and desires. I find that too much bullshit stands in my way. It's funny as I keep thinking back to points in relationships I've been in and keep finding this fatal flaw of where I seem to lose the ability to submit to a primal desire. It's like I fall victim to my own devices and thoughts before satiation of a carnal pleasure. Normally it seems so easy so ready so willing..... then as time passes I find that I become boring and no one seems to want me the way I want them. My eyes and mind then start to wander. I never cheat outright, to be honest if it were not for porn and internet porn I'd be a wandering gigolo. Yet thanks to modern technology I find myself lost to a mastubatory life where I hope and desire lust that never seems to find it's way to me.
I have my suspicions, but no desire to hurt myself to find truth. In this I am a fool.
