As I decend into madness.....

     I've been trying to prioritize things to keep myself running on some of the things I enjoy. Yes this list includes my artwork and video games and things that keep my mind active. Hopefully I'll start work at a decent paying job so I can further the progress of my hobbies so to speak. Yet I feel lost in my own world. I feel like I'm an accessory not so much as a part of the life I lead. This is causing ripples into things. Mostly a desire to go beyond normal means of things. My artwork is reflecting a lot of my desires and feelings yet there is a mash of who I am and who I was in those pieces. It may end up simply being nothing new and yet at the same time may become an integral part of my design process. I feel sad yet happy as art brings forth thought and hopefully one day this will all make sense.